Above all is loyalty…because with loyalty comes love…and with love comes everything.
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What happens when Im not there…
…is unspeakable.
It just makes my blood absolutely boil..to know what some do and to know they get away with it…free to do it again. Free to do w.e they please because they know that I have my hands tied…tied because of a gay school where every little shit roams scot free from their miserable and dispicable acts.
But just as others before them…they will not walk for what they have done.
One day..they will take responsiblities for their actions..willingly or by force…even if that means that blood will be shed..and thats a promise.
Things like this are what embody a fear…a fear of what happens when Im not there to keep everyone else in check. It is things just like this that make it even harder the next time that Im simply not around..even for 5 minutes. I know that soon I wont be around very much at all…and if such actions are to occur within hours of my absence…what does that mean for stretches of days at a time to come? Thats probably my biggest fear of all…..what happens when Im not there…
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The silence isn’t so bad,
Till I look at my hands and feel sad,
Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly.
just pour me a drop of atmosphereee..just a damn good song
A New Dawn
Theres really no way to describe how much anger..rage..sadness Im feeling right now. I thought that I had heard it all before..that there was nothing that could provoke emotion from me. But this….this is beyond anything I can comprehend.
In such a state its easy to seek revenge..the kind of revenge that draws blood and confessions. But that kind of revenge has no place here and I know that.
But..so help me God..neither of them are going to walk for what they have done..
The only option for now that I can see is having us move forward..past all that has happened to you in your past. Ive buried almost all of my past..and you can do the same for things you so choose…its no impossible. We will do it together.
It is a new time…a time far different than before. The fears you’ve had..the unspeakable acts committed against you.. will not be seen again. Your happiness will reign and im gonna be around to make sure of it…thats a promise.
